This week. Oh, this week! There aren't even words. I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful last week as a missionary.
I made it!! So it seemed appropriate to spend my last p-day on the arch of Triumph
District meeting!
Last ever.
Our very last meeting with our ward mission leader in his classy office in Paris.
La Famille Tshinemu. They both served missions and they just run this ward. They're amazing.
Elizabeth and Naomi! Our new friends.
On another note, Tuesday night Soeur Hawkes had to come into Paris for legality and guess who she stayed the night with? ME! It was the first time I had seen her since Tours. And I think God planned that one. Because she is exactly who I needed my last week in France. Soeur Hawkes is a beautiful soul. I just want to be exactly like her. She is the most humble person I have ever met. And everything she said just healed my soul. I love her.
Well, this is it. I can't believe it. These 18 months are coming to an end. Did it really happen? Did I really pray with these beautiful people on the streets and knock on doors with the most humble and noble souls behind them? Did I really get to testify every day of my God and Savior? Did I get to help these French people catch the vision of their glorious eternity? All I can do is weep. A part of me aches to be back in that tiny classroom in the MTC with my entire mission in front of me. But I feel peace. I know it's time. I know the best is yet to come. Everything I have learned and experienced is preparing me for what is yet to come. And as I look back at all the beautiful things I have witnessed and the miracles God let me be a part of and how much I have changed, I am filled with awe. God is just so good to me. I'm just so grateful. So grateful He let me come.
I found myself in France. To
me, my mission is sacred. France will always be holy ground. Pieces of my heart
are scattered throughout the sunflower fields of Nancy, the cobble-stoned
streets of Lille, the riverbanks of Tours, and the metros of Paris.
The Paris Opera House!
I had forgotten how stunningly gorgeous it is.
Winged Victory of Samothrace! The most beautiful thing to see in the Louvre.
I am blown away by what a different person I have become. I have changed in so
many ways, but I think the biggest change I see in myself is this: LOVE.
Aurelie! Our sweet less-active friend. :)
I remember sitting in my
mission prep class a few months before I reported to the MTC. We had a lesson
all about love and charity and how they are completely central to missionary
work and I just remember sitting there thinking "Well... shoot." Then
a few months later, I sat in the amphitheatre in the MTC, watching Soeur
Monson's funeral. I just sat there and wept. My heart ached to be like her. So
loving. So kind. But I could see how far I was and it seemed impossible. I just
wasn't a giver at heart. Then not long after I got to France, I met some
terribly hard persecution from someone of another religion. And as I walked
away, in the pouring rain, it all began to click. "Though I speak with the
tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding
brass, or a tinkling cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and
understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so
that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. And though I
bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,
and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. And now abideth faith, hope,
charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity." (1
Corinthians 13) And God began to say to me "My work must be done this way.
By this shall men know that ye are my disciple, if ye have love."
And I promised God right then that I would love.
Mme Su. Our albino African amie. I ADORE HER.
And since then God has taught me so much more about love.
Because you see, it's all about love. It's the reason for everything. The
reason God created this plan of happiness. The reason our Savior performed the
Atonement. And if God, the creator of the universe and everything in it, puts
love behind everything He does... we probably should too. Because love changes
everything. When you make love your motive, it sanctifies your actions. It
transforms the mundane into the majestic. It magnifies your small acts of
obedience and service into holy acts of consecration and rescuing. Love lifts
life to a higher level. It changes not just a few details, but its very quality
and character. Love can never be used selfishly. You can't use true love for
personal gain. It just doesn't work that way. That's the beauty of love. Love
is for its own sake. It works only as a gift, never a reward.
And Love is who we really are.
All love emanates from God. And as we are the children of God, we are the
offspring of this love. Every one of us is born with the desire to love and be
loved. It's part of our very being. We were made for love and to give love.
Whenever I feel love, it awakens something inside of me that cannot be denied.
When I feel love, I feel eternal.
This is why my mission has set me free. Because, to steal a
line from Les Mis, "To love another person is to see the face of
God."
It wasn't a perfect year and a half. I had times where I really struggled. But
I can say that I tried to love everyone God placed in my path.
Love has set me free. I can't thank you all enough for loving me. Especially when I didn't deserve it. Your love has changed my life in extraordinary ways. I love you so much I can hardly breathe. I will see you on Thursday. I can hardly wait. :)
Love has set me free. I can't thank you all enough for loving me. Especially when I didn't deserve it. Your love has changed my life in extraordinary ways. I love you so much I can hardly breathe. I will see you on Thursday. I can hardly wait. :)
Love, Soeur Autumn Bradley