I am getting transferred to LILLE!! It's in the northern
part of France. I think. ha! My new companion is Soeur Elliott. I hung out with
her over Christmas and I love her. SO excited!
The best pastry EVER. Pain de chocolat aux amandes.
our final district meeting
I have thought a lot this week about joy. Joy in this life
doesn't mean complete relief from all problems and heartache. It means finding
it despite it, through the atonement of Jesus Christ. I have had some of the
hardest experiences ever on my mission. Sometimes I feel like my heart is being
carved out of my chest. Loving. And leaving. And loneliness. And starting over.
And watching as people just don't GET why and how the happiest thing in the
whole world can help them!
Claudia came up to me this week after sacrament meeting and
I told her I was leaving. She looked at me amazed. And then started crying. And
I was SHOCKED!! I thought that we had never even made a dent in Claudia. I had
given my whole heart and soul trying to help her and I often felt like it was a
whole lot of nothing. I asked Claudia why she was crying. She said "I
don't know. I have never cried when a missionary left before. I just want you
to know that everything you did for me wasn't for nothing. It didn't go in one
ear and out the other. I listened. My faith is growing. It's taking time. But
it's there." JOY. The most wonderful pure joy I have ever felt in my
Claudia. LOVE HER.
My heart has been really carved out this transfer. But the
deeper the heartache the deeper my ability to feel all of this JOY. Worth it.
Every bit of it was worth it.